For Me

As I sit in my cozy home, in my cozy bed, my heart aches.  If only everyone else were in a similar setting.

Tonight I attended the visitation of a long time family friend.  Her son, who was 50 something, was murdered last week.  By his wife of 27 years. 

There's more to the story, but I have problems accepting this death.  He was a good man, who worked hard.  He leaves behind his wife, sitting in a cell and his mother.

His mother buried her other son ten years ago from a heart attack.  Two sons, two untimely deaths, no grandchildren.

I cannot comprehend why.  My heart hurts deeply. 

Lately I have been listening to hymns.  Ones I heard growing up.  While I love Chris Tomlin and Third Day, they've been silent lately and the chords of songs hundreds of years old have filled my ears.

And on nights like tonight, when things just don't make sense, I hear the lyrics from "This is My Father's World":

This is my father's world
And let me ne'er forget
That though the wrong
Seems oft so strong,
He is the ruler yet.

This is my father's world
The battle is not done
'Cause Jesus who died
Will be satisfied
And earth and heaven be one

In the midst of such sad and senseless events, I must believe there is more.  I may not understand fully until my earthly days are over. 

But God is sovereign.  And holy.  And he works in all things.

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